Goodbye furry family member, I miss you already.

Yesterday was a sad day in our home, we said goodbye to our dear furry family member.  Macy, the goldendoodle, was part of our family for nearly nine years, but she'll hold a piece of our hearts FOREVER.

Unfortunately, we knew this day would come sooner than later.  Just one month ago, Macy was diagnosed with a splenic tumor.  The veterinarian mentioned some signs to look for.  I checked these signs daily to monitor the progression of her condition.

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Friends and family alike fill our yard to gather for the annual Mount Calvary Firemen’s Parade.

As our yard fills with conversations and laughter, chairs line the street.  The parade has begun and approaches our stretch of the street.  This is Macy’s very last parade.

Her energy is minuscule.  Our furry family member isn’t greeting each and every one of our guests as she normally would.  She lays on the cool pavers near the house.  I crouch down to pet her and check her gums.

I don't like what I see.  Her gums are pale pink, almost white in color.  A knot swells in my throat, my eyes fill with tears.  Today is the day I have to say goodbye to my dear furry family member.

The vet mentioned it would be fast, but this fast?  How is this possible?

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I’m a first-time dog owner, because of this, the emotions are new for me.

I try to hold it together and am successful, for the most part.  The challenging days are to come when the company is gone.  Our home will be more quiet, regardless of what I’m told.  Our furry family member's energy brought the chaos to a whole new level.  Even with three kids, the chaos would increase dramatically with Macy’s energy level.

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The food remains in her dish, her toys scattered throughout the floor.

Memories of chewed up toys, nooks, and socks coming flooding in.  Macy was NO angel.  She ate more socks than any dog I know.  But we couldn’t avoid it, she was sneaky and fast.  Our furry family member was a trained therapy dog, but most wouldn’t believe it.  She knew when she was working.  When she was ‘Off The Clock’ she was a crazy, excited, high-energy goldendoodle.  I could train her to be a therapy dog, but I couldn’t stop the counter surfing!

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Working in my home office with never be the same.

Macy sleeping under my desk, barking at the dreaded brown truck.  She LOVED everyone, with exception to the UPS man.  Not sure why!

Loving was never an issue for her.

If there was ever a dog to love TOO much, it was our furry family member.  Macy was a 70 pound lap dog.  And, you better not stop petting her!  She will paw at you until you give her the attention she believes she deserves.  Children came into our world quickly and Macy accepted each one with open paws.

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This is a hard post for me to write.

Some things that make it easier, though.  I’m doing this for Macy, just sharing a little bit of her story with you.  More of her story will come at a later date, but for now, this helps me deal with the loss of our furry family member.

Constant hugs and reassurance I give her during her last day of life comfort me.

Our goldendoodle will be in a better place.  I ask her to give me a sign she’s arrived in heaven, and sure enough, Macy obeys.  She was hearing me, and listening THIS TIME.  The ride home from the veterinary clinic was a quiet one, just my husband and I.  As we near home, I look to the sky.  That’s when I see it, the bald eagle circles above us.  Overwhelmed with a sense of peace, Macy is in heaven.

Catching all the balls and frisbees, eating the kids’ food, socks & nooks, giving nonstop kisses.  This whole time, wondering why on earth I’m so sad.  She’s in a wonderful place.

Goodbye Furry Family Member

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photo credit:  www.laurelynsavannahphotography.com
photo credit: www.laurelynsavannahphotography.com

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6 Comments

  1. Mary Mihm on July 23, 2018 at 3:30 pm

    Hugs to you and your family.❤️❤️

    • laura on July 25, 2018 at 9:53 pm

      Thank you, Mary! That means SO much to us.

  2. Tracy Abler on July 23, 2018 at 3:47 pm

    Laura, this is so beautiful. I hope it helped you in the very early, raw stages of your grief and healing. I’ve known Macy as long as I’ve known you and Josh. May her memories fill the absence she has left behind. I hold you and your family close to my heart.

    • laura on July 25, 2018 at 9:54 pm

      Such sweet words, Tracy. Thank you! You’re a true angel & I hope you’re doing well.

  3. Roxane Kelley on July 23, 2018 at 3:54 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss. You took family pictures for us and included our 2 choc labs. Katie was getting up in age and passed in March at the age of 14. I miss her so much but love the picture you took of her and its sitting on my desk as I write this.

    • laura on July 25, 2018 at 9:57 pm

      I love to hear you’re still cherishing your photographs. I absolutely LOVED your session. I’m sorry to hear about your loss of Katie, her memory lives on in the photos. As will Macy’s. God Bless

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